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O Lord, show me what your will is in my life and help me to do it. |
I continued to work at various jobs, at one point I had three
part-time jobs and one weekend off a month, which I spent at the monastery.
I loved being a teacher, working at the nursing home, and also
working with the mentally and physically handicap in their homes. But I
knew that I wasn't called to stay working in this way for life.
I have always tried to figure out what God was trying to teach me
in this part of my. I started to think this way since I started my first job as
a hostess at King's Family Restaurant when I was 18.
I just kept working and praying that God would find some way to
make this work because I couldn't do this on my own, and that is what God was
teaching me at this point in my life.
I remember someone coming up to me after Mass one day and said
that I have too much faith in God and that he didn't want me to be devastated
when God doesn’t answer my prayers. Now I know where he was coming from and that
he didn't want to see me hurt, but I took it as a wonderful comment. This
meant that he could see what I couldn’t; I have struggled with my faith in God
and still continue to “work” on it.